A girl  wanted  to use  
 the word   switchblade      the deft   way
   deaf matron   of the radio    war       
          without
attracting perpetrators   traitors   patriarchs   or ever the
      opaque enzymes     my 
calves are brimming with hot wine and acid look like greek sculptures act like black actors at the chameleon circus and uncle leon is my favorite one cerebral
     
 from the heart   ,   vulnerable   and   ground in
      valium   to stay relevant        
it's  almost   enough   to know    what my father  
 would have done     to those men,
    if he   were   still stuck   on    earth
     how many      he almost    killed  
   for     her    and    her  
  and     me    and    the hurt  
 they   dream   as salvation          
or   simplified    leadership        
he used to be naive
       and think             that   he could live without  
 killing             My king    
    is   a million   silent   slaves   who  
don't   believe   in   nightmares     
escape (continued )
       bathed   in the   serial   wayward
  patience       a  man   with dimples   who
  could   play     the   drums      and
    faint   in the     voice     like  
 Andy   Bey   that    man is 
and standing up to put
 the   blame   on  / song        
     Tradition   should be
just  as 
offensive  
   as   the broken      notes   of my
 unrepentant    desire        which  
 evaporates          
to  
 announce   itself    as vulnerable     and in
   charge   of    that   blind    tone
     
I filed you under suspect    for the
way    the love never    fades        
     I prayed for courage   and saw my  
 mother's    feet clapping   on the   treadmill  
  almost bare  but for company   kicks    and  
this skill   of the spectator    and   we were  
watching   In   Living   Color     that   show
  about   funny  niggas    who cry   for money
  
The
Blues Offer No Solution      
What
were you doing down by the watermelon ? 
Are
you my angel    
(Flashback
or :   White mother combs out mulatto
daughter’s  hair  while 
marching on the treadmill  and Watching In Living Color (muffled laughter) early 
1990s     Los  Angeles   ,  California     )         Are you my angel?       
