Thursday, January 25, 2018

Petty Immortality / Petit Mort / Getting off

You used to  be funny    now  you’re  just   dumb    and  that’s    a  muse     agreement    that’s   a   jeep  and   a museum      entrance    a   numb   bloom    of  dental   records      to   prove   it       was  your   horsemen  dressed in bones  and lighthearted  vengeance    and  kept   on     riding    and  eating  ham   from  the whistling   pockets  of  cedar   dens  while your   vehicle’s tongue is bitten  with splinters    and  your   fingers   and  compassion  forced  to insert  itself    into  moments  of  mutual  suffering     and  lurk   and   crack  you   open    and   taste   and  ruin  the   nasty   opera   of   your   wishes     So  now   you   wanna   live         now  you wanna   be   loved    instead   of  worshipped      now    you  wanna   wear  protective    styles      now   you wanna   fold    your   eyes   across   mine  like   some  minor  kaleidoscope  and   think  Ima   not    swerve            or   otherwise  deliver no mercy       now   you wanna  love  me   even  if  it   kills   you     wanna     do  me like you  did  white  jesus     and  then  pray to me like Ima  even     cuddle or rustle  keys         now    you  want   me   to   teach    how   to   live  forever    or at least how to  dance   in a finite   expression   of   something   other  than   regret       and   you   think   Ima    not    swerve          It    was     the      end            of    western   thought       we    had       reached    its  paddled  cliff       fought    our     ways    back   to  the   restrictions   of   innocence   so  our virgin could sit on a toilet and fuck  her  boyfriend  while  his   wife    was at the party   looking    around   like    she   was   lost    or    had   lost  something     the   cross    or   the crossroads   or   her  Bone  Thugs melody  that    was    a  hymnal     that   was    a  double   breasted  jacket   on   Malcolm  Little   type   switch    in    the   pattern     of   loveless  riddlers    drifting    into    car   radios     and  infomercials     in     tears   and   handcuffs