Wednesday, December 18, 2019
Thursday, December 5, 2019
Wednesday, December 4, 2019
Maafa's Good Diction
I could be that believable gypsy in a ski mask they call me a secret so I sing in the cut
The rubber gesture guts guesses at what it is coming through the sound
I'M SCREAMING
a confession of laughter through suffering an African proverb thing I mean turning intensity against itself as a mode of assimilation has its own language good diction I’ll always miss Malcolm stay on topic we were talking about Black hypocrites invisible hypocrisy like Blackness like that small plaintiff nudge like backstage ugly neon gutter rider sweat hugging the blue lit rafters and you laughed to keep from screaming skimmed the air for amphetamines it’s crazy to know how to say anything to make anything meaningful/sinful soulful kinfolk as it is this tenderness in me is razor scores carved into the concrete tunnel between Angela and Fred Hampton The interviewer asks are you in love with him and she cannot even be bashful anymore or caveat to revolution his corpse at the window dancing peeping clinging clamouring her screams the supple smell of before rain is dwelling on the Black song asking it back to itself she just sat there in the dark room under the grey mushrooming spotlight and giggled in that direct shrill pitch she could never disguise not beneath afros not beneath straight perms or braids or rage or dread or origin fading into war grin I'M SCREAMING she answered and they enter that silence together
Monday, November 11, 2019
Wednesday, October 16, 2019
Wednesday, October 9, 2019
Sunday, September 29, 2019
Thursday, September 26, 2019
Maafa’s Interanimation
I love my lion into low limbs a lean can see why the nursery rhymes for lynching begin in his mouth and meth don’t shout teeth black with reluctance to shine come shine
My lions are shiny hind and shins the heel meets the perineum and clears the mind or something now I’m thinking about irons and my wrists itch of flood of sculpted air and errance the itch of ache to be dancing
Monsters in every myth are the hungry beast cuddling with hunger please don’t be hunger don’t be her
Be the words go back sleep tattooed on that star as spell but also arbor arbitrary hellfire we’re writing hell’s obituary deleting the delta in our elbow boats
Where you gon’ go?
Are you afraid of where this song is going as you so lonely ride it
Sunday, September 15, 2019
Saturday, September 7, 2019
Maafa 88
With each kill more confidence more alliance more hints of lavender in skyloaf more bile more no boat bride more inertia to rivals who are no rivals but a virus of verses kissing her jade ring stride with a the circle eyes of lazy love
Monday, August 19, 2019
Past Life Regression/Rebirth
The ruby in the center of the room was another me speaking in genderless tongues, ruminants, peeling the hunted entrance off complicity and with its rind turning the silence elegiac-wide. I had my own room in Iowa. Four years old, I had this one tribunal of my own where I went to meditate and make chimes of the bars of light that the blinds made on wall with moon and siren. I don’t understand where fear was but it never reached me inside the violence of home I felt like an anchor and chord and a record and a miracle, I felt saved already, I felt safe because my parents were a little crazy like in the movies and the unhinged are honest and always looking for evidence of their safety or of the bounty waiting on the other side for when they regain composure. I am the bounty in that house, the evidence, the child prize appraised as obedient, pretty, be easy, I am the other side. My sorcery is— be a miracle and say no with your body. The throat closed and third eye readied sustenance, I ate my dreams. They tasted like blood and denim. I drank my blood. It was the cool mud of ancient Minnesota. In this one most memorable feeding dream, maybe I was abducted. I traveled beyond the horizon separating event from event, that lying line of blue, that aqua whimper against the onslaught of truth. Either way I went to sleep, mama tucked me in, everything was patient. And I woke up, arms in an x over my chest, in a headband of shells and feathers and a leather dress, bison and lines of orange paint on my cheekbones, like I’d been sent back to see who I’d been in a past life. A girl, peaceful in battle, a swarm of heroic indifference to struggle, a matter of fact nihilistic hero. I was shown some past life self and also joined with her as sigil, healer, letter of sky in the bled out genocidal reel. Being reborn, I got up, walked across the hallway to my parents’ room to check on them like a spy. They were ok, quiet. I went back to bed and contemplated the familiar unknown of rebirth. I was four, I’d never seen a picture of an indigenous girl in the soil waiting to be consecrated, but I knew her, like I know myself. How could I speak about my trip to the end of hunger? There’s never been a more complete and urgent sense of peace on the killing floor. There’s no road as unspeakable as a child who still remembers her previous lives, caught between every tongue, their rumbling significance, their appetite for reunion with the now. What saved me in that house was the spirit remembered in flesh that neverending night/now. Escaping the distress of logic is what saves me.
Thursday, August 8, 2019
Requiem for Mamie Till
On the edge of duress this pressured ecstasy of leaping let the people see what I see
there is something already too symmetrical like angels in Emmett's manner some nerve in his eyes as crisp as September roads some road in him as smooth as it smothers the crooked attitude of those who beg to touch it the flickering acquisition of that shine his perfect pearl lips and shimmering teeth we go blind when he’s happy and she is prone to shimmering with him and all the men wear big black hats to her daggers to her eagles to her solomon’s leap and they are prone
to shimmering with her
Revenge as endless and unwedded as love we made needles in the skulls of evil men and then left them to their entropy thinking
they got away with something swoop kissing at the verdict like the frozen corpses of Pompeii Mississippi they really did this kissing / killing filled their DNA with needles you have to laugh at their ugliness you have let the whistle echo in them like an itch to dissolve all will but repentance
Mamie will never be the same
She can see daylight on the other side it has a hidden name
Let the people see what she sees
Wednesday, July 31, 2019
Maafa’s Equipment
What is the black body when setting up floating fences when I moved and noticed the dead lemons pentagrams for love rotten rubber yellow like a low rain and it glows as the ghost of a dead sun it’s roads unzipped to show devils we love forever honeycomb low veil will you come home and wave slowly Will you roam to me with wax and memes clean my delirium and I get hungry punch the dirt like hunting and swallow something country bounty slips down me like leaky snow holds in me a calm knowing when the land will change hands it will already be a ruins I rinse my mouth in blood I love the bite marks of tractors on earth but I wouldn’t wanna be her
Sunday, July 28, 2019
Wednesday, July 10, 2019
Infant Energy/ Infinity
This time traveling beyond language was a survival vigil hold mechanism at bay but also the chance in it the chant me(chan) summon this time all of your agency at infancy you fancy this time almonds and the crease in the air on the altar cowards whispering their prayers at babies we say resurrection this way and some are shamed into surrender and some coerced and some just don’t remember the song of themselves come back to learn it over anterior return retinue it burns in the new bodies of stars of cannibal roses
And the the titled heave of any ultrasound meme is getting around like a rumor and rummaging through the sun’s belongings I don’t see so much of a difference between ownership and hysteria I don’t see these things as different things and my sense of pleasure is in cherishing the perverse unity of speechlessness and forever this way the way the womb does hug its phantoms in tom toms and Rosecrans / normandie not the one in France not to outlaw digression but to long for the line of sight from purchase to loss of will and let it recoil: a healing
Thursday, July 4, 2019
Reenactment
There can be tenderness in the cedar wrapped satin instrument of torture I beat with a hammer until it believes it is really a foot & my bloody feet look good in the field like how they would appear in leaving the slender green gashes make an alphabet of that way over there! scatological departure with an objective so clear and coiled its
modesty will make you weep
The modesty of a Black pianist because it is not sublimated rage makes me weep
that pathological tenderness of this and this and this black body bleeding nods and curses seeps into the dirt as render then whatever murder silence is
His immersive sincerity his endless childhood a rubric for the silly hope we all keep in our skin like buckets of candy and the sugar never expires but its sweet fades to the faint funk of daylight in a movie
What a terrible way to keep a record
Wednesday, July 3, 2019
Sunday, June 30, 2019
How to Style Scars
These shrines are telecommunication devices their displaced patience becomes oppression a totem’s pressure on the spine no sun spin blind and lucid is a brisk skin of a laugh or wince the light in half toward the black thought or some pathogenic gimmick and its phlegm of cranes something dainty went up a ladder made of the body’s excess its surplus its majestic overproduction and the bevel was thin and pale and forever a lesson to rub
She squinted to signify one of the jive healers was learning sincerity see jesus seasick jesus she widened to intensify the significance of no one in particular the branding iron and some candles a net sac of swollen peaches as it punches the pole that sweet illicit juice of flesh slides down the isle linoleum orange lunge is this what you call a wedding we met in the metro no retrograde no blood gave off the aroma of transmutation like the unspilled blood of in a puddle of shrines I was always wearing velvet behind some elephant man with a television show and no mansion I was a good girl wishing on stars while my hard r sizzled
And it occurs to me these ruins are the blighted heave of an endless trance and we might even like them that one dance lifting the invisible weight in segments of giggle makes it seem like we like a world almost over like if there’s something we’re late for we’ll feel just distorted enough to make a move
And that was the new grammar mumbled garden of nerve and charge and here’s what we’re not finna do and are you a martyr or a lot of dizzy renditions of what if or whatever the killings are pathetic tributes to the power of black life you say I can’t hear you say it!
He was busy kicking the ribs of a child and her skill was less death
She was busy reviving the shrine and it looked better than free shipping over fifty dollars paradise
Whistler at white girl this is your likelihood coffin paradise
Go off, queen paradise
Wait softer paradise
Are there maps to get us back to ship I think it’s a pitiful riddle on the railroad I think the lyric being over at last is so shirll about its presence as disaster to get some attention we have this wicked laughing disaster with no name now we named her Ma a fa not worried nods don’t blame me
And obedience is no longer cunning these shrines are coming back to life to tell you what lie you’re sick with that victory also oppressive also let me out of this boat
Nina goes on trembling
LeRoi’s bright red eye at the oral history recording
Miles’ dick shriveled in the pool
Get off my dick
My mamma loves Dick Gregory
But Cavett had every guest
But Gregor Samsa fasted for two years to protest the Vietnam War maybe
He drank only water He bought Yoko Ono her first black event in attention
The drug addicts are in a pile on isle one
And I saw Michael Jackson come in the backdoor screaming did you see him?
Thursday, June 27, 2019
Run on
Child Born On a Wednesday who knows why we keep the names of the men who beat us my mama said dust and taxes I rubbed some syllables into good drugs club went up club went up in flames damsel came Denzel came Malcolm’s pain came off like a veil after they shot him he’s on the gurney smiling he’s gone on renaming pride shame like a master asterisk drifting between his first and seventh eyes I wanna keep his name some bride bribed plain— Maafa X I wanna fix the hex on pain kept in living vessels and called soul on that exactly deranged lie it got loose in his skin then and revolution hence I wanna nah nod into a noose to do this / to undo this
Monday, June 17, 2019
Phosphorescence yet
Sharing became my coherence water music water music Basinski Eisenstein Van Peebles had I sold myself to fall in love?
Thinking (of) who put her head in the oven
Thinking, you are an intense piece of light
I just might
Goodbye, for now
Angels bow at the sky
Tuesday, June 11, 2019
Monday, June 3, 2019
Sunday, May 19, 2019
Tuesday, May 14, 2019
The Slaves are Crazy
Decadent with intention and horsemen sanity will be an omen when it comes
The broken fever that lasts forever will be an oath of participation
And the rebellious heart would rather be crazy than accomplice
The slaves are crazy they halve their fists into these knives turn the nave
And the whole congregation into tomorrow’s food say massacre is sacred and earlier you said this
I mean had the tables turned flipped over
I mean if the great paintings of the holy feasts we me were Maafa you would
witness the clear luck we crave beginning in your erasure from memory
And so she went on determined to forget the danger, onward, knives for fingers
To chop the range of crop like a lobbyist I’ll trade you this hallucinating plant for first dibs
On sabotage
The sabot is a peasant shoe (hear the show in the robot, the sad oath of signifiers) and I’ll trade you for two show shoes in which I do this switching and running through this forest it gets vivid
The sabot is also a device that ensures the correct positioning of a bullet in the barrel of a gun So to come in my shooting shoes I will be traded or killed by you or running these choices thrill me, throw me for a loop? As in lasso I’m so tied and up in these choices I look like a pretty number 8 don’t I look infinite innit?
The sabot is also a box from which casino cards are dealt
The common thread between these objects arrives at the walking loudly that makes the intended meaning of sabotage and the slaves are crazy we thank your fake god and walk as loud as possible in our crowded wooden clogs in gunning gambling feet you leave Maafa no choice but sabotage which is suddenly a feasting festive word for black progress for a deck of blank cards some shoes and some blushing bullets
Saturday, May 11, 2019
Friday, May 10, 2019
Slave Demo Tape
Magnificent clamor magnificent sin nubian hinter his and hers invincibility shackle on our hill I’ll ball I roll in the grass action movie star style I’ll hold the child like I rein the horses I’ll blame the source of my power for my pain I’ll be correct I’ll be correctional I’ll be so courageous my heart will go on my daybreak won’t wander in the dirt I won’t see daddy’s skull or Nipsey’s in that soil I’ll get us a building how they love their definitive structures their limits or boundaries so many words for rethinking no where I’ll let the building laugh us off it’s math of cliffs call this demolition call this upswinging falcon singing and yes I have this demo tape unraveling this naked magnetic thing yes there’s a record we left in the kef and dirt as rut as slaughter leather that was us
Tuesday, May 7, 2019
Monday, May 6, 2019
Saturday, May 4, 2019
Friday, May 3, 2019
Thursday, May 2, 2019
Wednesday, May 1, 2019
Messianic, this ship
Lanonic and not like Lacan neuroplastic not like a dolphin fanning Fannie Lou Hamer from the salt lamp window don’t make sense fingerprint on the mirror then abduction has its resonance
It sounds again
But that is no reason to blame the large birds of prey for carrying off little lambs
Having been taken ravishment a fake thing victimhood is and so what is it that this torment really wanted?
Not the pathos of distance not the path to jazz and rap music and misogynists and this strutted witness not Mingus’ big ass violin which brings tears of joy to my eyes cracks me open where the messiah shows himself for the murderer he’s been
We wanted to be forgiven like my hero mentions into the mirror again for the murders we intend
Large merchants in her skin a big selling hint a woman has her prices this ship might be a kite on the lips of her endless confession
Tuesday, April 30, 2019
Monday, April 29, 2019
Sunday, April 28, 2019
Friday, April 19, 2019
Catatonia
Antonia Antigone your moan be a koan a keeping sphere or natal occlusion and country
numbed blooming alloy from scream to mumble hip hope of the only authentic ones
Catatonia my tongue is slipping down my throat as the serpent lips in my spine
which is choking too into the arrow note green note la lutta intoned against coaxed honor
there were no words on there that body hadn’t articulated when it said bending in every
endlessly sturdy austerity ecstatic you won’t need those chains
Speechlessness the place where thought collects like a hive and hides in like effort in the
force of grace
Is the other side of the scream at the primal scene swaying not yet saying no which hums like undeserved offering not yet saying indeed which lies
like yesterday same as saying nothing is so alive I’m a music Maafa a muse in her
Atavistic visceral hold up that’s the girl’s name a silent killing some strange voyeur
Yearning for herself who she is strangling
Sunday, April 14, 2019
Maafa's Lariat
We are gardeners and daughters of gardeners and we twist proudly leisure is replacing ritual and I’m not sure if its about evolution or the barren land but I can hear myself think again and certain that the empire is temporary I’m touching the public soil with bare hands and rehearing the nearness bashful as a fold rehearsing the clearing to be sure we neglected the necks of noon the next things and talked over them in radio took a dose messianic unknowns and wondered at the nommo which somewhere else is infinitive for ‘to make one drink’ I am making one drink in the gallop toward garden relearning Gunther and thread spun to arrow where tapestry becomes bondage in the very language you are wearing the close word and in its charge it multiplies together we defy the whole swamp this way shedding the dissociative brackets for the path from sheath to strangle to black angel and in our charge it rains so hard all the ducks drown slow There’s always a brighter downfall ripe for celebrating we are gardeners and daughters of gardeners and we root proudly knowing plants to be the reborn saints rehearng their hue as a row of muted sun while a hawk holds a ribbon up to the untransmuted energy Remains keep coming and we glove and store the ruins as if some mummies made new There is something alive on me if you come now you will hear it humming if you leave low it will let you know: the view of the dead slave in the beautiful apartment with its bright walls and vast proportions is criminal, is war is this the code to the garden’s gate this looking in and naming this is the code to the garden’s gate! And the raised dead move like the breaking of silence and since I didn’t say the shattering they move in a ritual of twitching tones and atonement drinks itself a chalk sky a talkie treating the banality of horror like a rival smiling fiend to pry the catatone off its throat these are our seeds what seeds are these?
Thursday, April 11, 2019
Thursday, April 4, 2019
Thursday, March 28, 2019
Wednesday, March 27, 2019
Literally the Autopsy (of the so-called black body)
No matter how far gone he is he never lets himself get killed in a dream and this vicious nonchalance this Sports Chalet shit he pulls when he’s afraid of his vision hems and seams the scam like a carcass waiting to be kissed painted given its inverse manger yesterday’s kef in tomorrow's coffin we have the loftiest vendettas we vex and buck and bled out the tire swing looking for the meaning of the house it sways from like a vacant clock of Maa fa do not let the clot lodge somewhere obnoxious and watchout for the stiff wrists of addicts and what’s trapped inside his head as madness laughing comes out catatonic screams we need to deal with catatonia some more the entire turbulence of the digital world silent as a blizzard as it nears itself dirty as thursday jupiter and rage day to grow and spiral we need to deal with idols and the sulking boundary between eyes and yes we need to see inside of the genocide to its heart which must be broken wound up & dreaming of its own murder it loves go so much we must deal with blame but who? I feel strange as an angel telling you to shape your mind and die but what a caress we get in your stillness and we can say the deranged names of western hills like all bets are off Leon lost his mind waiting for Maa fa to admit she knew where the body was and float through new snow to the tucked black shoulders on the white bones of water I half remember him being awake when they took him away in chains and suede it’s so hard to say genocide but Maafa comes out riding how the savior rides with the endless middle ahhhh or ox and the yes / no eyes at the end of suffering when it becomes delirious lucky she is the one watching their broken bodies beg for more she is the one saying yes and no and softening sinners’ limbs into lasso
Wednesday, March 20, 2019
Maafa in Constant Gardens
Torch the crop to bring rise to fertile land and dance with jodorowsky around the shouting arrows
I don’t want to get all mystical about growth but torch the crop to bring rise to fertile land
the black gardener monsanto murdered audibly is leaking and squealing just beneath the burn his body becoming fertile land I don’t mean to blame fertility for killing but torch the crop and a fire spills its nerve erotic destroyer and what I cannot destroy shiva will destroy for me and listening I see his gust of needles land on g and grab a moan I keep saying to speak is to touch he says please touch yourself for me he settles beneath the torch a middle c orchestra trying for bea and to be about it row of orange orphan clouds spilling into new sky like the mild crackles in black hallways and the one come from the killers to swallow torches is talkative as a reach of sunflower pollen in the isle pollen in the limbic shyness of voices that can feel themselves copulating in the field helplessly like echoes and cold moondust falling flinging itself at the mercy of the season of broken crops that kiss to hunt the rain that suck on garnet to keep thirst away that chase the firefly into the beetle’s name so you’ll never know shit from magic unless you burn one down oh cowards how I treat your effigies like flags of unborn nations and your flowers the first fascists again fascism has a pact with spring investigate nothing and no one but the land and the mouths will show as crows with flutes for wings where gardens are for warnings that never end
Monday, March 18, 2019
Maafa One
There’s a man on the surface of your skin,
remember?
Mandarin oranges straight from the can pinched like pimp hand zeros (heroes?)
I was choking
So I only ate soft things no chewing choking on the softening seed of a bullet appalling me
From my mother’s throat Maafa can’t breathe the boat to shore
Maafa don’t study war no more
Sometimes we call this intention but in this case it's that she’s onto the banality of horror
She’s bored with the angry men their broken livers bending the skin between the brows
Into ladders there has be a keener voice a sturdier steam to tend
This is the end of the beginning of genocide it begins swallowing soft things
And then pans to Quincy a recorder Edward Kennedy Ellington’s steeple chasing him
In tented Italian footage of everything but the passage down the canal to level where
He he calls the notes no more innuendo tell me
Quincy is holding our baby
Black beauty is the most powerful currency in the world
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