I was singing to hold up the world
And If you only you knew how lighthearted that is how far past bitter how my incessant joy is the cruelest thing in there is the only belonging worthy of the world built on endless grief this grin
He shows up in, with his clumsy horse talking bout get in teeth like gates and patience and I know I'm no longer dreaming up citizens and great jungle flowers in the garden of what might have been No longer an American like that cured and drunk on relief humming and packing away my invisible strings
For a second I wondered how I could ever have lived here how anyone had lived here
can you shut up about lust and accept your nakedness as sacred
as I have can you hold sacred the nakedness of another
He laughed again and we made the light